I have this odd fascination with reading comments by people who must inherently be so full of fear –
Anyhow – they have all taught me a lot.
Pure positive energy dwells inside of me.
Goodness and kindness, empathy and the willingness to serve. To share, to give – without expecting anything in return.
I listen to my inner voice – more so now than I have ever before.
I have learned to heed its truth. I believe in the truth that it is – the pure instinct born from deep within, not influenced by anything from the outside, nothing calculated, no hesitation, simple pure thought.
Not weighing any pros or cons, not measuring or wondering, simply following the inner guidance system that we all have access to, but so few trust to follow.
I am now past middle age and moving towards the next stage of life – knowing that it may be cut short much sooner than the lives of my mother and aunts – and it does no longer cause me any fear.
The anguish my impending demise evoked in me has finally burned itself out – like a candle deprived of oxygen –
I know with a certainty I have never felt before that I will be OK. I need not fret – no fear – no harm can come to me. It is OK. I will be just fine.
My ears will tune in to positive sounds, those audible and those you only hear with your heart.
I have learned that I can observe and listen, discern and decide – that which resonates with me and that which does not.
I am an Empath. I can feel deeply, I am a Sensitive – my mind, my whole being tunes in to the emotions around me –
I have learned to understand – and to recognize the fears and anger some are feeling and am focusing – on the thoughts and emotions I resonate with – tuning in to the pure thoughts – of love and kindness – without any motive other than to be of service.
How may I serve?
I understand now – when you truly listen to your Self. Untouched by any outside influence, ignoring any and all advice or guidance from others, thinking without words and only living for the Feeling – the truest form of being in this world, now – when I do so, I have no excuses – the moment I try to justify anything – make excuses – stopping my straight forward train of thought and feeling any doubt – it means I have stopped listening – and I know I must focus again, tune everything out – others do not know me – they know nothing – and have no influence over me – not anymore – I shall no longer listen to that which cause unrest, in me and to all around me. It is untruth.
I understand now I am truly the maker of my destiny, and it has nothing to do with gaining riches, beating out competition, looking sharper than another, sounding better, dressing better – it is not about any of this – I am only listening to my inner voice which guides me to feel pure loving thoughts.
It is my hope that others will find the Truth, too. The ugly words will be unspoken, the threats and viciousness, the calculated attacks, the sneers and cackles, the vile laughter – the harassment, bullying and lashing out, the meanness and distorted thinking – brought on by fear – fear of living today, fear of tomorrow, and most of all, fear of – after.
The drive to amass fortunes, the pretense of living a life of luxury and make-belief – the lie of feeling generous, when giving is done only so far as it is not felt directly –
I learned that giving of yourself and of your things means more if it creates a perceived lack in your life.
I will continue to think on this. And continue to practice living within myself, with my Self.
